



Dear Readers♥
i was just reading my primary school friend's blog and i found an awesome story ( i hope you dont mind that i stole it Jeshika :D)
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10th grade As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
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After ii read this ii burst into tears...
It's suchh a heartbreaking story especially after you've just watched a really sad drama...
ooh and ii saw this quote on jonah's blog which she got off foonie's blog...
"The thing is if your friend rejects you... then you lose a friend. You have to take the risk of losing a friend for love."
That reminded me of this little paragraph thing ii wrote ages ago...
(sorry for those who can't read korean but its easier to explain)
그대에게 사랑한다고 말을하고 싶다.
매일 그대를 뒤에서 지켜보고 혹시나 뒤돌아 볼까봐 기다린다.
그러나 그대는 이런 내 마음을 모르고 아무렇지 않은것 처럼 날 대한다.
친구을은 나에게 고백하라고 언제나 얘기한다.
그대를 사랑하니깐 한번이라도 마음을 표현하라고.
그러나 언제나 뒷날을 걱정하는 나 자신...
그대가 거절하면 우리 사이가 혹시나 나빠지진 않아을까 하고 걱정에 파뭊이고.
그대의 모든 행동에 빠지고...
그대의 눈을 드려다 볼때마다 그대 안테 더빠지고..
빠지고 빠질수록 그대라는 세계에서 빠져나오기가 너무나도 힘들고...
내 마음이 어떠한지를 그대는 한번이라도 되돌이켜 봤습니까?
그대의 눈에 보이는 나는 어떻습니까?
나의 마음을 모르는 그대가 참 답답하고 밉습니다.
오늘날까지 하루도 빠짐없이 그대를 사랑핸 내가 참 바보스럽습니다.
i'm gonna go to bed now :D
Hope you riked todayy...
미진♥

WELCOME. ME. BACK.
Miss me? I know you did :)
So yeahh. I'm back :D
Aren't chu happy~ :)
Today was spent on eating chocolate and drawing fake scars over katy's arm. :D
In PCL we had to do career crap. Apparently I'm creative... =='
Katy and Ivan started fighting about if simplified chinese was better or traditional.
ii was watching 강심장 cus ii was bored :D
At English, ii had to partner up with Jackie (girl) to disassemble paragraphs...
ii needed my pencil case from my desk so ii asked Sharen to get it for me.
When we looked at my table, Wayan was staring full on at it and me and Sharen were laughing full on :D
He stared at it for like an hour and then he decided to put it back on my desk when he noticed me and sharen watching and laughing :)
Then, Kieren started playing with my waterbottle and someone was saying "Oi. Why are you playing with shani's stuff?"
And Kieren's like, "Cus she's my friend :D I get her approval to play with it"
That was funny.
And in science, someone asked Mr Gagem "How many sentences should we write?"
And he goes, "If you write around 3 sentences, then BOB's your uncle" :D
THAT WAS REALLY REALLY REALLY funny and random :)
After school me, jess chen and sabrinaa went to sunnybank plaza :D
And we all bought easyway and sat down.
ii bought Lychee blacktea with Pearls. :)
Sabrinaa bought passionfruit relish. :)
Jess bought this yummy white blended ice thingo :D
Then we noticed that literally half of my cup was filled with pearls and Sabrinaa only had 1/8.
Jess had rainbow jelly :D
Sabrinaa got pissed so everytime ii put my easyway on the table and looked around, she would pick up some and eat all the pearls. D:
Then once, I drank some and accidentally regurgitated a pearl back into the cup.
(trust me ii usually dont do tht its just that jess made me laugh while ii was drinking so yeah) :D
And then Sabrinaa tried to drink it again while ii looked away and she ate the pearl that ii regurgitated :D
Then me and jess were laughing and we told sabrinaa and she stopped chewing the pearls and evil glared me. :D
Then she swallowed it anywayy and she had to go to Jap tutor.
She gave Jess a hug and when ii asked for one she told me to hug her bag but ii couldnt hear her so ii was like, " Did you just say, you want me to hump your bag?"
And we were laughing :D
Sabrinaa didnt give me a hug and walked away so ii followed her and she tried to hide behind a toy machine so ii followed her behind it :D
Then ii raped her :D -jokes-
ii ate her up and ii came back to Jess :)
Then me and Jess went shopping at coles.
And ii taught Jess how to pick yummy mandarins :D
But most of the mandarins there were crap :D
Then me and Jess came back to the food court and stayed there for a little while.
Jess sat down first cus ii had to put some rubbish away when ii saw this guy that this guy at my church bought to church for fun... =='
And the guy's scary.
He changed his hairstyle so ii didn't notice him.
And he passed me and ii pretended to not notice him but he turned around and was like '야!' so ii had to say hi to him...
Then ii noticed that this hot guy ii knew from the korean orchestra ii used to go to was staring at me and ii was like 'wtf?' walks away. (hoping he didn't think ii was friends with that other dude)
But the dude from korean orchestra is too old for me anyway...
He's in uni first grade...
So that was my day todayy :D
BYEEE~
H A P P Y B I R T H D A Y
C A M I L L E ~ ~ ♥
13/05
Celebrating the existence of Camille todayy~~~ ♥
Camille's turning 14~~ ♥
She's getting older~~ -oh my- :D
Hope you had a nice day Camille~~ ♥
Camille's Birthdayy dedi:

Extra info:
The dedi's got lots of pixels on it cus my photo uploader is crap... :D
I wrote this blog yesterday at rike 12:00 am.
Then ii finished it and it said that it couldn't save... ㅠ.ㅠ
That's why I'm typing it up today~~ ^^
Sorry everyone...
ii can't blog for long today..
Runny nose... ㅠ.ㅠ
BYEEE~~~ ♥




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