Dear Readers♥

i was just reading my primary school friend's blog and i found an awesome story ( i hope you dont mind that i stole it Jeshika :D)
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10th grade As I sat there in English class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called "best friend". I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before and handed them to her. She said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I wanted to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
11th grade The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said "thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Senior year The day before prom she walked to my locker. My date is sick" she said; he's not going to go well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together just as "best friends". So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she isn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Graduation Day A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as I hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said, "you're my best friend, thanks" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
A Few Years Later Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say "I do" and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said "you came!". She said "thanks" and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.
Funeral Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my "best friend". At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: I stare at him wishing he was mine, but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me! `I wish I did too...` I thought to my self, and I cried.
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After ii read this ii burst into tears...

It's suchh a heartbreaking story especially after you've just watched a really sad drama...

ooh and ii saw this quote on jonah's blog which she got off foonie's blog...
"The thing is if your friend rejects you... then you lose a friend. You have to take the risk of losing a friend for love."

That reminded me of this little paragraph thing ii wrote ages ago...

(sorry for those who can't read korean but its easier to explain)

그대에게 사랑한다고 말을하고 싶다.

매일 그대를 뒤에서 지켜보고 혹시나 뒤돌아 볼까봐 기다린다.

그러나 그대는 이런 내 마음을 모르고 아무렇지 않은것 처럼 날 대한다.

친구을은 나에게 고백하라고 언제나 얘기한다.

그대를 사랑하니깐 한번이라도 마음을 표현하라고.

그러나 언제나 뒷날을 걱정하는 나 자신...

그대가 거절하면 우리 사이가 혹시나 나빠지진 않아을까 하고 걱정에 파뭊이고.

그대의 모든 행동에 빠지고...

그대의 눈을 드려다 볼때마다 그대 안테 더빠지고..

빠지고 빠질수록 그대라는 세계에서 빠져나오기가 너무나도 힘들고...

내 마음이 어떠한지를 그대는 한번이라도 되돌이켜 봤습니까?

그대의 눈에 보이는 나는 어떻습니까?

나의 마음을 모르는 그대가 참 답답하고 밉습니다.

오늘날까지 하루도 빠짐없이 그대를 사랑핸 내가 참 바보스럽습니다.

i'm gonna go to bed now :D

Hope you riked todayy...

미진♥